Current mood:	depressed
Current music:	Joe Hisaishi - In the Rain

Aaand cue angst!

Sorta, anyway.

More like, school-angst. XD I've been sick for a few days, and haven't really been caring about attending my classes this semester.. I've been slacking off, avoiding work, and, like I usually do when something gets tough or it comes down to something I really don't want to do, or can't do, or even THINK I can't do, I'm running away.

I know I should pull things together, finish up this semester and pass everything... Since I could, if I actually, honest-to-the-gods TRIED for once. But really, I don't know what I want to do. I'm struggling so hard through even wanting to BE in school, that I really just don't.. want to stay. Maybe I'm not ready for this yet, but if I quit now, I wonder if I'll ever go back. Even still, at the rate I'm going, I'll probably flunk out and then NEVER get a chance to go back.. Augh. I wish I could find something I'm good at, and enjoy, but it doesn't seem like there's anything out there for me. And I can't sit around doing nothing with my life, one, because I NEED to be doing something, and two, because I think my family would kill me. I know they're disappointed in me, and it's hard dealing with it, because as much as I want to make them proud, I can't.

I just.. really don't know what I'm going to do.